Friday, February 24, 2006


Meeting up with a good friend over lunch - PRICELESS !!

He had been my workout mate - remember those times when we used to push our limits in pumping iron and those days on the threadmill trying to outdo each other....

He had been my travel mate - remember that cold winter night in Ooty when we zipped through the roads on a CBZ bare chested throwing away the only T-Shirt we had with our teeth tettering....

He had been my drink mate - remember those evenings when we would share a beer and talk endlessly.

He had been my team mate - remember those late nights we used to work discussing on girls and god ;-)

Just a pleasure to meet for a lunch with him after so many days - Now that he is in the same campus, I guess more such lunches are in store. *all smiles*

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Have a break ! Have a Kit Kat!

Its been arnd 10 days since I had proper breakfast.
I got 24 hours a day yet it isnt enuff. I hardly get a 4 hr sleep.
My eyes are watering like hell and I hardly am able to keep my eyes open
I feel a constant tinge of acid churning my stomach.
I got a terrible throat infection that just doesnt seem to leave and I havent had time to get medicine.
I'm working like 30 hrs atretch and yet am nowhere close to meeting the deliverables at this point of time.


Amidst all these there are good news @home, and am going to Sathur coming Monday. My little kiddo is gonna get his head shaved off right on my lap..... and poor baby, get his ear pierced.....Well, I only hope he doesnt cry...I hate to see him like that. And a serious wish that guy doesnt pierce my ears insteasd.....well, coming to think of it, it isnt that bad a proposition.....wld be funky!!!!

The Wait...

He picked up the regular supply of groceries and walked out of the store towards his car. His heart skipped a beat at whom he saw. She was standing there, leaning on his car.
She came forward and hugged him and said "Hi". He kissed her on the cheeks and exclaimed
"What a pleasant surprise !"
"So, How are you doing? Are you fine?" he inquired.
"Yeah. Doing good. How are you doing?"
"Yep. as usual. "
"hmm...Saw your vehicle and thought I'll say a hello. I just stay around the corner here. "
"I'll walk you down". So saying, he threw the groceries box into the car and walked beside her.
They walked along the pavement in the beautiful fall evening covered by the colourful leaves which had bid their final good bye to their source of life.
"So, you found a boyfriend, huh?" His eyes were inquisitive.
"Is he rich?"
"You know its never about the money"
"because of staying alone aye?"
"No. I'm not scared of being alone. To me, scariest thing is to be with someone and feel alone" She looked into his eyes.
He sighed. He looked back into her eyes and said
"I know. I'm sorry if I had made you feel like that. I did not realise it. And I realised it after you left."
"You were always living in future ignoring the then present."
"I was living in a future of us and I was away only to make it come true."
"And I went through the hard times alone."
"I understand and I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry too. I was being hasty." she said.
They walked silently for sometime. Soon, they reached her door.
He looked at her and said
"Men do not know what they have until its dawn. I knew what I had but I never knew when it would all be gone. Over these few months, I realised that it was always you, ever and anywhere in my thoughts. I will always remember us. Whereever I go, whatever I do, you will always be with me. To me, nothing has changed. Remember, my doors will always be open for you. Have fun and take care."
"I will always want the best for you".
He kissed her on the cheeks and said "Good night" and walked down the road.
She looked at the man walking away from her and thought,
"I have always loved you. Will there be a time for us again?"
He turned back from the distance and shouted across the road
"Remember, babe, I'll always be waiting for you !".

Sunday, February 19, 2006

When you lose in the race...

How can a person exhibit two different characteristics totally antagonistic in two different places? It beats me sometimes. I got a feedback at work that I demonstrate a lot of self confidence and knowledge to crack down things.

Yet, of late, @ home, I have totally lost confidence in myself that I can handle things well. In any situation so far, if there was something that kept me going, it was my self confidence that I can turn things around and there would be happy days and I chose to be happy in what I did.

(Excerpt from Alice in Wonderland

`Would you tell me, please, which way I
ought to go from here?'

`That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said
the Cat.

`I don't much care where--' said Alice.

`Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.

`--so long as I get SOMEWHERE,' Alice added as an explanation.

`Oh, you're sure to do that,' said the Cat, `if you only walk
long enough.')

In the recent times, I find that confidence completely hitting the bottom. I'm scared I wld give up on life if this continues.

I guess its a phase like that of a sportsperson. Sometimes, you never understand why, but you just cant get the shot right. You see the ball, your brain orders you to take the right directions and the right moves, the body reacts and GOSH ! Its a miss. One failed shot, the next and you find yourself in a deeper trouble. Matches are lost consecutively. Theres only one thing you can do at these times. Re-discover that previous player who did things exactly the right way, who never let things bog him down and its just a matter of time! Giving up is never an option in life

`Come, there's no use in crying like that!' said Alice to herself, rather sharply; `I advise you to leave off this minute!' She generally gave herself very good advice, (though she very seldom followed it), and sometimes she scolded herself so severely as to bring tears into her eyes; and once she remembered trying to box her own ears for having cheated herself in a game of croquet she was playing against herself, for this curious child was very fond of pretending to be two people. `But it's no use now,' thought poor Alice, `to pretend to be two people! Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make ONE respectable person!'

Pain and pleasure

There are three types of men

- one who inflict pain upon others and derive pleasure
- one who inflict pain upon themselves and enjoy misery.
- one who inflict pain upon others and thereby hurting themselves and basking in the feeling of misery.

In any case pain is a source of pleasure. A powerful mind is one which is able to recognize this mysterious loop of the mind and control it !

Friday, February 17, 2006


My conscience is my GOD !!!
- ME

I got a testimonial on my orkut profile that goes like
"A guy who is tough to understand but who is truly gentle in nature and yeah..practical guy!!"

I kinda like it, but practical ? hmmm.... There are instances I fight hard to be practical and those are the moments I realise the weaknesses of human mind. Its so damn difficult sometimes, but finally you learn to accept it. And there are times, when I have screwed up things by thinking too much into things and trying to be too damn practical ! Am I practical? May be, May be not !!! Just a random thought !!!

Current Mood
Who Am I Artist(Band):Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006


On a total of 3

1 down...*big sigh, grin*

2 more to go...*tired*

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Stupidity !

I hate sounding like a stupid. How much ever you may open up to someone, people in return tell only what they want to tell you.
When you know this and practiced it all along, why is it that with some friends, you expect to know their opinions and feelings? This is plain stupidity !!! Why do you give it so much thought and sound like you are the stupidest dumbo on Earth.
Gosh, me has become complicated !!!(as if I wasnt till now??)

Current Song - Leaving on a Jet Plane - John Denver
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Monday, February 13, 2006

Happy Bday !!! Happy V day !

Today is the bday of a very special life
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Happy Bday sweet !!!
Yeppie, he celebrates his Bday on a Valentine's Day !! Coolo !!!
Reminds me of all the time that we have spent together and with our friends, right from the time when he peed on me ;-( to now when he has went thru a terrible depression and a skin disease. Finally alls well and hes fit and fine !!!

Hope this year brings in more and more happy memories for us together!


Catching up with an old friend
loads of chiding (unnecessary) of my long forgotten geography marks
Barista Cafe Mocha - finally after the regular CCD stuff @ work, but yes Barista coffee ARE better than CCD. And though i didnt want to, I have to accept that to my friend ;-(
Watching a late night movie

Thats like a perfect weekend !!!

Rand De Basanti - a small review

Music - rocks ! (Is that unusual or what?)
Acting - clear, subtle at times, emotional and intense at others.
Editing - Mix n match
Camerawork - very nice, Close ups need a little more focus at times.
Story - The truth stares in front of your eyes ! You may choose to accept it or not and decide to do something about it or not ! Choice is yours !

Monday, February 06, 2006


Have you ever heard some words, some phrase, uttered by someone or written by someone etched forever into your mind, be the guiding spirit in all the down phases of life constantly motivating you to give your best and try hard.....

There are two lines that always is what I probably call the beacon of my struggling self at all hard times (there are many whom I have taken inspiration from)

Miles to go before I sleep...

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

Incidentally, both of them comes from the same person - Robert Frost. hmmmm

Well, y am I posting this today.....Am I feeling low....Far from that.....I actually am happy that things are getting back on track at work.....But today I happened to read both of these lines...on the net while browsing thru the numerous stuff I read daily.....I give myself one hour at the least to browse in much it has become a part of me - This internet !!!

So, what or who motivates you?

Sunday, February 05, 2006


Not a very nice way to start the week, but amidst all work, I really want to take the time to pass it onto you guys.

Anyways, try clicking on the pic to see clearly.


Its about the killing of baby seals thats emerged as a popular sport in Canada and Norway. I have a friend whom I like and admire. To quote her words "There isnt any other animal on this planet who kill for pleasure than humans." How true !!! I understand the nature's rule of survival. But I really dont like this.

To end on a pleasant note, last night, I had a dream. I was para-diving from high above from a helicopter with a freind of mine. It was as real as it could get on a dream. The feeling of the wind against our face and the fear for the first few seconds which turned out into a streak of the smiles and laughter and screams - happy ones.....Gosh, I so wanna do it ;-)

Thursday, February 02, 2006


Why do I end up fire fighting all the time.....Earlier, I used to be the one who should be blamed, for taking things for granted and letting it go the way they are, not steering any of the things, not be vocal in what I wanted, but life taught me bitter experiences. Then I learnt to make decisions more wisely or so I thought. I started taking all the time to analyse and be sure of what I wanted and if I can keep the commitment (Gosh, thats so difficult for a Gemini like me if you believe in sun signs) and that my desires come from deep within my heart. And I was happy I took time but at the same time was always very cautious to the extent of being over cautious. But I was clear. But then again,even though so clear in my thoughts and desires, things go wrong as they always do and I try to undo things, fire fight and try to make it smooth and best for all involved. But it jsut doesnt happen that way or atleast easily. When, you are careless and stupid, you end up doing the same as when you are cautious and clear in your mind. What de heck is the big deal then..Nothing actually matters !

Right now, am fire fighting to get things back on track at work (personal fire fights are on going *sob sob*) and things just doesnt look good in the near term and I hardly have any time to get thigns going.....
Now arent you just asking me what de heck I'm doing blogging when I have no time? *grin*...right, am back to work....