Monday, July 09, 2007

Its very funny how things unfold in your life. They say history repeats itself. But I guess in my case it is more than once. 2003 saw me as lost soul trying to get a grip on life. The cycle repeated in 2005 and well, its again repeating in 2007, except that this time, I tend to believe I can make it through.

And very funnily, all the three times, things happen at around the same time of the year in a certain way. Come back after a brief stay away with loads of hope but being left with nothing more than an emptiness. Then it starts all over again. Serendipity - I always associated it with good things. But in my case, cant really say why it chooses to end with a lost feeling.

The only saving grace about all the events.....I dont have reason to feel guilty.....I dont find a stranger in my mirror staring back at me....I never gave up on anyone even though people have given up on me or situations forced them to!

5 comments:

Keshi said...

Life has it's ways of recovering from almost any catastrophe...just like how our bodies heal from injuries..

Keshi.

Monicaatje said...

Hey! not fair! all we talked about tonight was me! And I was left with little info bout u (although the info u gave me this afternoon was very clarifying...)
I'm glad to know that this time around u think u can get through this, it's the first sign that u will ;)

Loads of luv!!
Check my blog :P
Hugs!!

idiosyncratic said...

serendipity??.. i didnt know so many ppl blvd in it.. u, dreamvendor,othrs... guess, its easier to leave things to fate than to fight for them,huh...
btw,whtever happened to ur technical thots??

Anonymous said...

Hi,

I have been holding back from commenting coz I felt my words may do more harm esply since it would be based on assumptions. Nevertheless, let me go ahead and forgive me if I have taken a bit too much of freedom or if I am totally wrong. No harm intended...at all!!

When u say history repeated itself, not once, not twice but a third time ..all in a similar fashion, don't you think most likely there has to be some issue on your side as well?
I have read something to the effect of 'if something happens to u once, u may not be the cause. But if it happens again and again, u might just be the cause'.

I am not passing judgments, but I just wished that you don't face it again...2009 or later. I am just trying to ask u to look at it from a different perspective...

When u r away and get involved a lot in travel, adventure, theater , getting a glimpse of a different culture, are u by anyway sending signals of detachment, inadvertently?

As I have said earlier, I might be totally wrong. Please forgive me, If I am.

I wish that you don't face a similar situation any time in future...for past cannot be fixed.

Very Hesitant
SB

Raz said...

i am in the same situation as u r! history repeating itself but i said to myself wht SB has said and realised that its ok! well.. basically i found out my prob n am fixing it!