Wish!

I wish you had taken time
I wish you had given me a little more time
I wish you had not pushed me too hard
I wish I had not resisted anything
I wish we hadnt felt hurt
I wish you are a little less angry at me
I wish you acknowledge my respect of your choices
I wish you trust me a little more to make you happy
I wish you believe in me a little more to realize our dreams
I wish you try to understand my feelings
I wish I dont have to lose you
and I still wish all these to happen !

But now, its time to set it all aside because,
I cannot wish life to be immortal.

Can you hold on for a min, pls?

Sometimes, all you need in life just a wee bit of time. The little time to understand things and make a decision, thoughtfully yet firmly. The little decision to put your foot forward without turning back. The little decision which will make you give everything you can to it. I dont understand why people cant give others that little extra time they need. The whole life could be so very different then.

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On a completely different note, it was the nth time my phone rang - a call I never intended to pick up. I wasnt interested in fools-grab-it offers. I was busy at work. Irated, I picked up only to hear

"Sorry, sir, I'm R from C C. You picked up the phone huh? (what do you expect when my phone rings?) Your caller tune was very nice.(Thank you) So only I'm listening to it? People always have Kannada or Hindi or their regional song. This song is very different. What song is this sir?"

"huh!!!"

I never knew such problems could also exist.

Sweating out my A$$

I realised the effect of having a professional trainer. I have this great motivation to sculpt my body to the shape I want, ofcourse, I will remain the same height - you see one cant change that how much ever you want.

I joined this new gym/aerobics/yoga at work. No, I havent taken up the aerobics classes yet(well, you can find most of the smart girls @work around there, and tracks make them look so hot, just like our aerobics trainer.). At gym, we have a trainer who can create a personalised schedule. I generally work out on my own schedule that I have devised - but this time around, I decided to let the proto do the work and Boy, Oh Boy, I never stepped so much on the treadmill(I used to call it the dreadmill ever since I broke one of the machines) and never have I used the stretch balls so much. I somehow make sure I always do my floor exercises atleast thrice a week in some form or other, but never got the stretch I experienced with the right exercises taught to me now. Holy shit, am all so spiced up. Interestingly, my threshold was way higher than I ever imagined. 20 mins of treadmill did not tire me out and the stretches which ppl were trying hard to hold for 30 secs, even after a minute, I never felt any unbearable pain ! Now, he has told me that he would start more vigorous exercises, but I got to stick onto strengthening ones, as after my spine injury I had not taken anything serious.

Now, with swimming classes on, I'm gonna turn as black as a charcoal after 3-hrs of swimming a day in chennai in the chlorine water, but I'm sure my ab is gonna get back to what it should be !!! Reminds me, when I had planned to do all this with a friend of mine. Wish it happens. Ah, swimming was one thing in my list of new year resolution and I so so need it if I wanna scuba dive and snorkel without any fear very soon !!!

DV
You must move your dumb a$$ and start working out if you really wanna get those sugars out of your system !!! Hey its fun too ! Get up, shake it and get going!!

Whats your color?

I love green - the earthly green, the ocean green, the tender green of the leaves blossoming in the spring. It makes me feel full of life !

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You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!




Your true color is Green!


What's Your True Color?

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why?...

What does it take to throw of something that you have built slowly for years and walk away just like that. Can you really do something of that kind?

Is it possible to erase the memories completely? or do we just set it aside reminding us one fine day that life could have been different had we not chosen to set it aside?

What can make you hate someone so much? Why is it that I never find a reason to hate someone? Why do I like to think from others perspective and understand their actions? Is it the reason I find ways to appreciate their presence in my life?

Why is it that people find reasons to hate me? Why is it that I feel people never try to understand from my perspective and see what it feels like and understand me? Is it the reason they find ways to hate me?

ASS-U-ME !!!

I boarded the KSRTC AC Volvo bus to Bangalore. Time was hardly 10:00 and the bus would start any time now.
The conductor who issued me the ticket was exceptionally nice, actually so nice to be true. I went in, put my laptop on the shelves above, and took my seat only to be surprised by the passengers whom I would be travelling with. I have been lucky atleast on three occasions so far whom I have ended up making friends with - girls to be precise. Now, here today, sitting next to me was a man, smelling completely of alcohol, (I think some people like to have a bottle of beer for perfume) who had removed his shirt and hung it on the front seat where two of his friends were seated similarly, showing off their what seemed like a vest that already seemed like left overs of a rat's dinner. On top of it, the guys had pushed back their seat and put their arms over their heads. Same did the guy sitting next to me scaring the two girls behind us. Now, thats quite a show that I couldnt put up with. Imagine sleeping under the arm pits of a stranger, a drunkard at that with four more in front of you. Yikes !!! The bus started and I realised that the back rows were empty. I went and took the last but one and switched on the light not to disturb others and to get a breathing space for myself from these stupid gentlemen. Cmon, I understand being down-to-eath et al, but there is something called an attitude flaw for the Indians. spit, pee and shit whereever you want, change dresses whereever you want , buses, trains everywhere. The other day, me and my friend had gone to this hotel in Adyar and there was this Marwari family. The kids wanted to pee. Know what the mother did, right next to the wash basin, where there is no hole watsoever to, she made the kid pee right there while just behind her there are these toilets. Thats what majority of Indians have for their attitude like the other big shot gentleman in breasted coat/suit driving a Honda City did by throwing off the cigaretter butt in the Airport Road and closed the windows to the comfort of his AC.

"Sir, this is the last stop. Can you please get down?" the conductor of the bus requested me.
I woke up and looked at the time. It was 4:14 AM. Thats a weird time to reach Bangalore. I know if I go home, I need to sleep which means I wont get up at the right time and it would be too early not to sleep and have a bad day.

I woke up. The girls behind me had already gone. Ah, there goes a chance of waking up to nice young girls caput. Dizzily, I woke up, and searched my laptop bag on the shelved above where I had left. I was shocked to see it absent. I looked around and found no sign of any baggage. First thought, those buggers - the drunken a$$..... looted it. Startled, I went to the conductor and said
"sir, the baggage is missing".

As I told, the conductor was too good to be true and he said
"Oh yeah, I took it and kept it safe because you were in deep sleep". Now, thanking my lucky stars, I took an auto back home.

On the way, I just thought to myself. Why did I doubt those guys. That was the first thought that came when I could not find my laptop. If someone thought about me like that, how hurting will it be? Or will I just show my fingers and go. How easy it is to form opinions - ASSUMPTIONS - the root cause for most of the problems in our life !!!

Life is a bliss ...

Life is a bliss -

when in the middle of the week, you are at home - 360 kms away from work and after a real good head massage and loads of grandma-made buttermilk, curd rice and "mavadu" on a hot sultry day, and then lazily sit down in the comfort of the AC in your room, with the b'day kid by your side, playing with your wallet and your over growing, playful pet( did I tell you, hes got rid of his disease and is hale and healthy with lots of fur again) waiting for you to play any time with you, and you work at your leisure checking your mails and catching up with friends online making fun.

Life is a bliss !!

The Negotiator

I happened to see The Negotiator and Jimmy Neutron last weekend !!! Jimmy Neutron was Ok, but I must say, I loved watching The Negotiator. I'm not a fan of Samuel Jackson. The previous movie I saw of him was Changing Lanes with Ben Affleck which is also a very nice movie. The movie is about a negotiator(Samuel Jackson) for hostage crisis who finds himself framed for murder of his partner by his own collegues, just when his life is getting all rosy with his new wife. The emotional drama unfolds when he takes the senior members at work as hostages and demands for a full enquiry of the truth requesting for no one other than another negotiator played by Kevin Casey. There are no fires, much action scenes in the movie but the whole movie was always on the threshold of highly charged emotional drama. An interesting watch in my list!

Nothing else to do ...

Woke up at around 3:00 PM. Yeah, it is kind of a weird time to wake up but with the sudden demise of Dr.Rajkumar, who apparently seemed to refuse to go alone even in his death, warranting another 6 lives along with his, bringing huge losses in a day, there wasnt much to do other than catch up on the sleep missed all these months. Well, you think I shouldnt blame him but the hooligans who find a reason to cause a furore, yes, probably, but you see I'm opinionated too. Waking up, I had this sudden urge to see what he did to Bangalore.

I drove through the deserted roads. I have never seen Bangalore like this, calm, empty and deserted with a sheet of laziness enveloping the entire garden city. I wondered probably this is how life would have been in this city before the here-now-gone-tomorrow world of software spread its evil wings on this innocent city engulfing all the ignorance and the beauty of the bygone pensioner's paradise. Life, then would have started slowly as it dawned, the school children waiting for their buses in their bright red sweaters, the retired personnels catching up with each other in the numerous parks scattered around this city, oblivious to the hustle and bustle at the same time in the metro cities of yesteryear Calcutta, Bombay and Madras. Life, then would have been a bliss in the serene, lovely atmosphere carrying the pollens of the huge varieties of the flowers spreading their radiance in all parts of this city. I grew up in a metro. That probably is the reason why I'm a sucker for a peaceful, lazy life style that is so characteristic of the hills. Here and there, there were couple of guys taking a stroll and couples catching up with their partners on the emptied steps of the shopping malls. I dropped into my friend's place and three of us decided to go out in search of some tea - yeah, the same old chai that is served half glass with the rest of the glass with frothy bubbles and cleaned in the same unclean water over and over again, made in those tiny little hamlets that serve as the hot spot for those youth weaving a dreamy future through those carefully practised smoke rings. How long it has been since I sat on one of those benches, along with my college friends yapping up away incessantly - sometimes about what we would be and mostly, just about the girls who pass by arguing over who looked more callypgian. We walked down the road along the closed shops. Wonder how many actually wanted to close their shops and how many lives were affected this day - because another life on this earth ended his lease. Reminds me that Bangalore can probably never catch up with the likes of chennai where even amidst a organised bandh, most of the shops would be open right when the clock stuck 6:00 PM. Guess, the influence of the past,a characteristic laziness is quite prevalent in the people of Bangalore. No I do not mean the young, brash, ambitious floating population that is characteristic of the present Bangalore, with all their designer clothes and bikes. But, for example, the auto drivers. In chennai, I could get an auto to even the next street if you know what I mean. People are always ready to work hard and make their money while in Bangalore, I spent an evening asking 27 autos in all to take me from Bannerghatta Road to Koranmangala 6th block. Most of the autostands, they would be ready to laze their bums gossiping about the whole world, yet would not move an inch unless they are sure they can make atleast an 100Rs / trip. Well, I think, this city is kind of confused losing its old world charm to the new world make over, unsure of where it is headed to. Is it just the city?

...

I dont want to go through all these again.

- mushy mushy SMSes @1:00 AM in the morning that say "You are deep in my heart"
- proud of cancelling all your friends invitations for me
- missed calls every 1 hr only to say "Just like that"
- wanting to know everything about me. (Do you really have the guts to take what you might hear?)
- claiming I'm the greatest person alive on earth to be your friend.
- ready to do everything and anything for me.

All in the name of friendship - Gimme a break please. How much can you know a person in two weeks? Why cant it be not just plain, straight forward and simple.

A day out !!!

When you work hard and suddenly get a day off in the start of a week, like we had today? what do you do? Initially I had planned to drive down to Shiv Samudram falls if I couldnt catch up with my friend today. Alas, my friend was working :-( !!!

I woke up to a sunny day(read it as pathetically hot) at 9:30 AM.....The falls seemed to look like it was on the other side of the world...So much for my plans ! Having got a recent promotion at work - read it as last week, I was in some mood for indulging myself

- Coloring my hair Deep brownish Purple shade (its actually 3.20 in the L'oreal language) and spiking it up a little
- treating myself to Thai food platter for lunch and Dum Aloo for dinner
- buying a pair of denim. My denims are too old to be called worn out..They are almost torn actually.
- spent an hour at Crossword sipping Almond coffee and reading magazines
- did 2 of the exercises from the sketch practice book I'm working on
- and amazingly practised 1 hr stretch of guitar followed by another hour of class with new exercises
- and finally a self made cocktail followed by lengthy chat with my collegemates.

Now that summer is here, and that I have stopped drinking.....(well, nothing other than cocktail and wine,) I decided to make a cocktail .....I had quit alcohol in all forms late last year to keep up a promise to myself which I kept until late Febraury this year, when the wish was fulfilled. And after that I kinda went on a drinking spree and realised it wasnt quite nice of me to do that. So, am back to the days of healthy drinking ! Here it goes,

1 oz vodka
4 oz Rose Lychess juice
Ice cubes to crush

Mix the contents in a juicer and crush it with the ice !!! Serve it in a margarita glass !!!

And beat the heat with more cocktails from here . They have close to 8700 cocktails for you to make..you can spend the rest of your life happily drinking them !!!!

Surprise !

Surprise ! Yay !! Surprise !!!

I updated moi long forgotten photo blog with something ... Check it out HERE

Because - I'm who I'm !!

Because I'm serious about my work does not mean I'm a snob.
Because you found that I'm not a snob, doesnt necessitate you to jut into my work.
Because you actually discovered I'm friendly does not mean I would run all stupid errands for you.
Because I can pick you on the way does not mean, I run a escort service, sorry, transport service for you.
Because you found that I can actually talk a lot, does not necessarily mean I'm always a flirt.
Because you found I'm quite funny at times, does not mean I can be funny at 3:00 AM in the morning, particularly after my share of drinks for the night and listening to you for 3 hours already.
Because I can make a nice company or so you think, does not mean I'm gonna take you all around Bangalore and buy you everything you see.
Because I stay alone, does not necessarily mean I'm lonely.
Because you think I'm lonely, does not mean you can grab my personal space.
Because you think, I'm a great friend, does not mean I have to tell you when I bath and when I pee.
Because you seem to be obsessed with me, does not mean I'm in a relationship with you.

Life !

Life is not about proving to others and yourself that you can live without them and anyone. It is about living it with people you love and care for !

TULIR

This is one story from the vending machine that tugged my heart hard, harder than you could have ever imagined !
And there were lot of comments for the story that something shoud be done. Well, neither am I inclined to get into what should be done and what can be done nor am I going to discuss on this issue that really needs some prominence and enlightenment in the Indian society, but this piece of information can be useful to those who really want to make some difference !

TULIR - is a NGO organisation that addresses the CSA and focusses more on the victims and helps the victim get back to thier normal life without any psychological damage in the long run. Well, as I understand, CSA creates a huge damage in the psychological behaviour of the victims that can go completely unnoticed and set in as a part of their characteristic.

TULIR can be reached @ 044-26207269 & 04426632026.

Juanes

How often you come across a song that you are hooked onto without understanding a bit out of it....I meant the words !!!

Am hooked onto this song from Juanes - La Camisa Negra of Mi Sangre album of late. This is played almost everyday in VH1 at the same time in the Good Morning programme!!! And I just love it !!!

Well, am back after a tiresome weekend and hectic work over the last couple of days !!!

Current Song Any time at all - The Beatles !!!

Bored like hell....

Am at work today. With all of my team away on a vacation ( I seriously wonder what I'm doing here)
Actually, I called up the Redhills Resort, Ooty that I have been wanting to visit for a long time and he said its all overbooked until next week when he can give me an accomodation. RedHills is a beautiful place 28 kms from Ooty and been classified as Ecologically fragile area. So, there are no developments and there are around seven lakes that you can trek upto. The only place to stay there is an age old British bungalow that has been transformed into a Resort and they offer wide variety of activities from Trekking to fishing to bon fires. Being a lonely traveller that I'm, the only thing that pinches me is that I would be actually spending the money for two people for my stay there. But, its better to travel alone and meet up people on your way than to travel with an irritating partner.

Am not in a mood to work, and therefore am completing all the formalities like submitting my Canadian Tax returns -Gosh, today is the last date for that and then filling up the feedback for my managers etc etc...Yeah, pretty much doing nothing and then decided to clean up everything, my desk, my wallet everything. I realised how these could make you completely nostalgic with the revelations of thousand small small things. For example, this two tickets of the public transport system in Chennai that I took.

Then there was this whole info on different tour plans we made and the calculations etc etc. Reminds me of those preparations, travel and the memories come back as a pleasant smile on my lips. Need to cut a CD and create a hardcover album. I like doing that. Though I'm into digital photography, holding the huge album, writing down the comments below and taking a look at those pics, thats an awesome feeling.

There was this purchase in landmark a very long time back. It was a receipt for the greeting cards and gifts we had purchased for our friend's birthday. And then my first ticket to Bangalore way back in 2003. That was a surprise to be holdingback something like that still. Memories gush past pre-May 2003and post-May2003 and there were times when I hated myself not able to spend time with my friends and family.

Its been almost three years now and I realise I havent actually much learnt about this city. I had visited all the famous places or rather tourist spots of the city as soon as I landed in Bangalore, I had even explored the night life around MG Road et al, but havent really gone exploring a different side of Bangalore yet. Yeah, thats because I never stayed here and unfortunate people that we are, we cant afford to do it on a weekeday when we work on the outskirts of the city. Gosh, I hate travelling so much to work.
Now that I spend a lot of time and infact got my bike, I will start doing it. After all, with my kind of work, I never know how long I would be in this city.

I cant drive home because my car is void of insurance for a long time now and I really am not in a mood to take the risk and drive. Nothing to do with my confidence to drive, but I hate an intuition that tells me not to take it this time. Should I probably fly down to chennai today or just go about exploring Bangalore the next two days when almost everyone I know in Bangalore is out of this place? Or probably pack my bag and visit some place around Bangalore? or just hike down somewhere or spend the weekend practising Guitar and learn to paint something new ?hmmm.....seems quite a number of options even if I dont go home! Our house is whitewashed after the rains and they want me to look at it and also some investment option on an apartment. Now thats an end to this boring post !!!

Just like that !

Have you ever felt like a stranger to yourself? Just sit there and watch, completely detached away from your own self, when the fun of your life is being sucked out of you and your are left out feeling drained, that you no longer derive the pleasure in the finer things of life that makes most of your day, that made others like you because you chose to be happy the way you are, when you no longer are interested, a wee bit in anything. Things that were very characteristic of you, the fun loving and carefree nature to confidence to arrogance to ambitions to aspirations, everything gets eaten away slowly by the parasitic events of the past that no one had no control over anything. Suddenly, things long forgotten and buried deep down, surface up poking your vulnerability - the very same vulnerability you were afraid of showing anyone, not even to the closest of your pals. The days stretch and drag as if there is no tomorrow and your favourite past times, be it travelling, painting or making music, does not keep you occupied for more than 15 minutes when you go back into that shell, where you lock yourself for no one to see pretending everything to be fine and when it dawns, you step into the day, determined to do whats asked of you - because life has to go on ! Whom do you blame then? The heart - that doesnt seem to understand and come to terms with the present, creating its own illusions of expectations or, the fully rationale and understanding mind which seems futile in convincing the heart and plays a tug of war with it knowing very well it is losing? And you are just a mute spectator - a pawn in this game of chess, a leaf drifting along with the wind. The characterisics of a leaf doesnt matter, as it is always pulled by the strong and unsteady wind to its whims and fancies !

FarAway - NickelBack

I got introduced to NickelBack when I was in Canada. And this morning I saw the video of this song of his Far Away . Ah! the typical senti stuff.....

Condolences

A silent reader she was of my earlier blog - One of the very few people who had linked me in the begining and didnt even mention to me about it. I hit her blog by accident and found myself linked ! When I saw it, it was pleasantly surprising and it made my day !!!

And today I blog hopped after what seems like ages only to find her gone ! It was saddening to see something happen to such a young girl who got married very recently. Brings a million questions in my mind and weighs my heart !

May her soul rest in peace !!!

P.S: you may read more here

Comfortably Numb

When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can’t explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Chamomile Ginseng Peach Iced Tea !!!

We have a CCD at work here. And there isnt anything left that I have not tried out there yet. Yep, there is one, Apple Cranberry Iced Tea. Wait, why do they even serve tea in a coffee shop? And thats how I was interested in Chamomile Ginseng Peach Iced Tea. Boy, didnt I love it. I'm an ardent fan of tea, particularly Iced tea, though I have fallen in love with coffee these days. Talk about changing love , but hey am still faithful to Tea,huh !! Reminds me of that shop Herbs and Spices in Adyar which me and my friend like to visit.

This particular tea has an aroma thats just hypnotized me. The aroma of the chamomile flowers - they are herbal flowers with a lot of medicinal value. Check this . I was surprised to see it being an East European herb. I thought it would be from china. I guess Ginseng could probably be the most popular medicinal herb. Combine both of these, you have one of the most coolest drink foryour system !!

.....Part I

It would be his last weekend in the city. The road diverged ahead of him and he had to choose one. And choose did he with a heavy heart. He did not want to end this last weekend like this. He wanted it to be a pleasant memory. He had called her out for one last date. He hadnt heard from her. She did not respond to his calls. As usual, he thought. He was dressed in a dark blue cargos and a loose fitting full sleeved tee with a comfortable floater. There was a strange forlorn carelessness in his walk. His dress, his walk, reflected his attitude. He walked towards the park. He wanted to sit on the concrete slabs of the park where they had spent a memorable evening recording the sounds of the tens of those chirping birds leaning on each other's arms and also one morning which neither of them wanted to remember. He turned his head to cross the road. As he crossed, a couple walked right past him. He waited for them to move past and started walking behind. They must be in the early twenties, he thought. They were holding hands and the girl whispered something to the guy. He noticed the guy holding her hands tight,hurrying up the steps and turning back in intervals and starring back at him. A stalker probably, they would have thought, he assumed. He slowed down his walk to give them a feeling of ease and peace of mind. Insecurity and fear - Fata Morgana -a mirage of human mind that drives people to the edge, he thought. He smiled at the couple's reaction to a normal stranger walking behind them. What is it that makes the girl take refuge and want to be protected by a man even though she could have taken care of herself if she was walking alone? A sense of surrender, he thought, making the man feel that he is the protector sent from heaven to save her, feeding his ego handsomely in the process and she herself feeling secure and satisfying her ego of owning a man completely dedicated to her. Love is a form of surrender, a complete ablution they say. He wondered at his own thoughts. Has he started analysing everything in this world? Is he growing wise or insane?

Maid in Manhattan !!!

Sometimes, you hear a song and that keeps running in your mind all through the day and no matter what, you just cant get rid of this mind that keeps humming the song in your head... And its happening with me over this Daniel Bedingfield's If you are not the One from Maid in Manhattan.
Last afternoon, I switched on my player and the first song to come up was this. Soon after, I went to Shopper's Stop - gosh, I need to get rid of this habbit of visiting it so often - I make it a rendezvous point whenever someone wants to meet me - and there goes, Daniel again. I guess I picked it right then and this song is looping thru in my head again and again.

On another note, I saw the video of You're Beautiful - James Blunt. It was quite weird. However, I think it perfectly goes with this song of his. Tears and Rain

Favourites?

Do parents have favourites among their children? or dont they?
Why is there the feeling of being neglected or not given enough freedom and importance as the other sibling? This is more pronounced in Indian families with the girl child feeling more curbed while the son enjoys all the freedom and also importance. No, I'm not talking about those illiterate parents who go to the extent of killing the female foetus (though some cowardly literates also do that), but those parents who are well educated and otherwise seem to be the ideal parents. Why is this differentiation? Is it because the society is established that the daughter moves into the husband's house while the parents have to depend on the son in their old age? Is this need and dependency create a unconscious partiality in the treatment on their kids? Or is it the fact that they are more protective about the daughter as anything would affect the future of the daughter in this society of contrieved thoughts that places too much emphasises on many stupid things in the name of values, morals and culture?

P.S
Havent completed this post yet...

When the road diverges...

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

I'm confused which one to take. One that is conventional and would be smooth but monotonous. The other - unknown, not much explored yet could be adventurous. Or may be not.

The heart and the mind plays a tug of war. The stronger mind wants to be adventurous and wants to take the risk. There aint any gain without pain. The pain of going away from people I treasure to a new world isnt new but the heart is not willing and triggers all kind of emotions frightening me more.

Years from now, would I be writing these lines or just wish I was more adventurous - I do not know !!

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference

caught the silent buggers early !!!

I read this post of DV and was reminded of something a coupla years ago...

Well.....when me, DV and our other frenzied beings were all still working together, (gosh, that looks like ages now), I went for a normal health check up. No, there were no complications. I just wanted to do it because I have never had a general health check up done. It felt kinda fun to do it and also wanted to verify the authenticity of what I have read - to do health checkups atleast once a year. Ah, the ways of a middle class family. We, Indians dont wanna visit a doc unless we are forced to, aye. Yeah, money also holds a huge responsibility for it.

I hadnt lost weight - like 10kgs in 2 months unlike DV, but actually I was blooking quite HEALTHY then....
The report came and I almost fainted seeing the Triglycerides count - yeah, the bad ba*@#$@# ....of cholestrol. They were silently teaming up inside me to hit hard in a coupla years. The normal range was somewhere between, 12-70 or something. and what did I have? like 5 times more than the normal- 372 to be precise. I only wanted to believe it was a typo in the report, which in these cases and all instances for me, never turn out to be the case. *sigh. God Fortuna seems to conspire against me all the time*.

I rushed to my doc friend with the report. Hey, it helps a lot when your classmates are surgeons and dentists. He studied the report and shot me with hoards of questions at the end of which he told me all I had to do was stop something that I had completely cultivated as a habit. The problem just lay in me eating a minimum of 2 Dairy Milk bars and two ice creams a day(sometimes 4-5) and hogging on nuts - cashews and almonds especially. This was a regular intake that kind of became a part of my life. And that happened always when I used to go out with my friends for a daily walk and on our way was an ice cream shop ;-(

It was difficult to stay away from it - yeah, that was the only solution if I were to respect the biggest gift of all - a fully functional body. and I did for two months and that was one among the worst periods of my life. At the end of it, I could kick the sh** out of the grouping glycerides. But that two months of workout and tongue-control-factor kinda set in as a habbit. I do often (read often not always) indulge myself with icecreams but the next morning, kick myself to get into the gym or atleast play.

Whenever someone gives this surprised look of me not so tempted by choclates and ice creams, well, I just smile !!! Advices dont help, do they? particularly when you are head over heels on them !!!

Cheers

Meeting up with a good friend over lunch - PRICELESS !!

He had been my workout mate - remember those times when we used to push our limits in pumping iron and those days on the threadmill trying to outdo each other....

He had been my travel mate - remember that cold winter night in Ooty when we zipped through the roads on a CBZ bare chested throwing away the only T-Shirt we had with our teeth tettering....

He had been my drink mate - remember those evenings when we would share a beer and talk endlessly.

He had been my team mate - remember those late nights we used to work discussing on girls and god ;-)

Just a pleasure to meet for a lunch with him after so many days - Now that he is in the same campus, I guess more such lunches are in store. *all smiles*

Have a break ! Have a Kit Kat!

Its been arnd 10 days since I had proper breakfast.
I got 24 hours a day yet it isnt enuff. I hardly get a 4 hr sleep.
My eyes are watering like hell and I hardly am able to keep my eyes open
I feel a constant tinge of acid churning my stomach.
I got a terrible throat infection that just doesnt seem to leave and I havent had time to get medicine.
I'm working like 30 hrs atretch and yet am nowhere close to meeting the deliverables at this point of time.

I need a BREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK pls or a new job !!!

Amidst all these there are good news @home, and am going to Sathur coming Monday. My little kiddo is gonna get his head shaved off right on my lap..... and poor baby, get his ear pierced.....Well, I only hope he doesnt cry...I hate to see him like that. And a serious wish that guy doesnt pierce my ears insteasd.....well, coming to think of it, it isnt that bad a proposition.....wld be funky!!!!

The Wait...

He picked up the regular supply of groceries and walked out of the store towards his car. His heart skipped a beat at whom he saw. She was standing there, leaning on his car.
She came forward and hugged him and said "Hi". He kissed her on the cheeks and exclaimed
"What a pleasant surprise !"
"So, How are you doing? Are you fine?" he inquired.
"Yeah. Doing good. How are you doing?"
"Yep. as usual. "
"hmm...Saw your vehicle and thought I'll say a hello. I just stay around the corner here. "
"I'll walk you down". So saying, he threw the groceries box into the car and walked beside her.
They walked along the pavement in the beautiful fall evening covered by the colourful leaves which had bid their final good bye to their source of life.
"So, you found a boyfriend, huh?" His eyes were inquisitive.
"hmmm..."
"Is he rich?"
"You know its never about the money"
"because of staying alone aye?"
"No. I'm not scared of being alone. To me, scariest thing is to be with someone and feel alone" She looked into his eyes.
He sighed. He looked back into her eyes and said
"I know. I'm sorry if I had made you feel like that. I did not realise it. And I realised it after you left."
"You were always living in future ignoring the then present."
"I was living in a future of us and I was away only to make it come true."
"And I went through the hard times alone."
"I understand and I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry too. I was being hasty." she said.
They walked silently for sometime. Soon, they reached her door.
He looked at her and said
"Men do not know what they have until its dawn. I knew what I had but I never knew when it would all be gone. Over these few months, I realised that it was always you, ever and anywhere in my thoughts. I will always remember us. Whereever I go, whatever I do, you will always be with me. To me, nothing has changed. Remember, my doors will always be open for you. Have fun and take care."
"I will always want the best for you".
He kissed her on the cheeks and said "Good night" and walked down the road.
She looked at the man walking away from her and thought,
"I have always loved you. Will there be a time for us again?"
He turned back from the distance and shouted across the road
"Remember, babe, I'll always be waiting for you !".

When you lose in the race...

How can a person exhibit two different characteristics totally antagonistic in two different places? It beats me sometimes. I got a feedback at work that I demonstrate a lot of self confidence and knowledge to crack down things.

Yet, of late, @ home, I have totally lost confidence in myself that I can handle things well. In any situation so far, if there was something that kept me going, it was my self confidence that I can turn things around and there would be happy days and I chose to be happy in what I did.


(Excerpt from Alice in Wonderland

`Would you tell me, please, which way I
ought to go from here?'

`That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said
the Cat.

`I don't much care where--' said Alice.

`Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.

`--so long as I get SOMEWHERE,' Alice added as an explanation.

`Oh, you're sure to do that,' said the Cat, `if you only walk
long enough.')


In the recent times, I find that confidence completely hitting the bottom. I'm scared I wld give up on life if this continues.

I guess its a phase like that of a sportsperson. Sometimes, you never understand why, but you just cant get the shot right. You see the ball, your brain orders you to take the right directions and the right moves, the body reacts and GOSH ! Its a miss. One failed shot, the next and you find yourself in a deeper trouble. Matches are lost consecutively. Theres only one thing you can do at these times. Re-discover that previous player who did things exactly the right way, who never let things bog him down and its just a matter of time! Giving up is never an option in life


`Come, there's no use in crying like that!' said Alice to herself, rather sharply; `I advise you to leave off this minute!' She generally gave herself very good advice, (though she very seldom followed it), and sometimes she scolded herself so severely as to bring tears into her eyes; and once she remembered trying to box her own ears for having cheated herself in a game of croquet she was playing against herself, for this curious child was very fond of pretending to be two people. `But it's no use now,' thought poor Alice, `to pretend to be two people! Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make ONE respectable person!'

Pain and pleasure

There are three types of men

- one who inflict pain upon others and derive pleasure
- one who inflict pain upon themselves and enjoy misery.
- one who inflict pain upon others and thereby hurting themselves and basking in the feeling of misery.

In any case pain is a source of pleasure. A powerful mind is one which is able to recognize this mysterious loop of the mind and control it !

...

My conscience is my GOD !!!
- ME

I got a testimonial on my orkut profile that goes like
"A guy who is tough to understand but who is truly gentle in nature and yeah..practical guy!!"

I kinda like it, but practical ? hmmm.... There are instances I fight hard to be practical and those are the moments I realise the weaknesses of human mind. Its so damn difficult sometimes, but finally you learn to accept it. And there are times, when I have screwed up things by thinking too much into things and trying to be too damn practical ! Am I practical? May be, May be not !!! Just a random thought !!!

Current Mood
Who Am I Artist(Band):Casting Crowns

Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

1....2....3...

On a total of 3

1 down...*big sigh, grin*

2 more to go...*tired*

Stupidity !

I hate sounding like a stupid. How much ever you may open up to someone, people in return tell only what they want to tell you.
When you know this and practiced it all along, why is it that with some friends, you expect to know their opinions and feelings? This is plain stupidity !!! Why do you give it so much thought and sound like you are the stupidest dumbo on Earth.
Gosh, me has become complicated !!!(as if I wasnt till now??)

Current Song - Leaving on a Jet Plane - John Denver
Lyrics
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Happy Bday !!! Happy V day !

Today is the bday of a very special life

Happy Bday sweet !!!
Yeppie, he celebrates his Bday on a Valentine's Day !! Coolo !!!
Reminds me of all the time that we have spent together and with our friends, right from the time when he peed on me ;-( to now when he has went thru a terrible depression and a skin disease. Finally alls well and hes fit and fine !!!

Hope this year brings in more and more happy memories for us together!

...

Catching up with an old friend
loads of chiding (unnecessary) of my long forgotten geography marks
Barista Cafe Mocha - finally after the regular CCD stuff @ work, but yes Barista coffee ARE better than CCD. And though i didnt want to, I have to accept that to my friend ;-(
Watching a late night movie

Thats like a perfect weekend !!!


Rand De Basanti - a small review

Music - rocks ! (Is that unusual or what?)
Acting - clear, subtle at times, emotional and intense at others.
Editing - Mix n match
Camerawork - very nice, Close ups need a little more focus at times.
Story - The truth stares in front of your eyes ! You may choose to accept it or not and decide to do something about it or not ! Choice is yours !

Motivator

Have you ever heard some words, some phrase, uttered by someone or written by someone etched forever into your mind, be the guiding spirit in all the down phases of life constantly motivating you to give your best and try hard.....

There are two lines that always is what I probably call the beacon of my struggling self at all hard times (there are many whom I have taken inspiration from)

Miles to go before I sleep...

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

Incidentally, both of them comes from the same person - Robert Frost. hmmmm

Well, y am I posting this today.....Am I feeling low....Far from that.....I actually am happy that things are getting back on track at work.....But today I happened to read both of these lines...on the net while browsing thru the numerous stuff I read daily.....I give myself one hour at the least to browse in general...how much it has become a part of me - This internet !!!

So, what or who motivates you?

*sigh*

Not a very nice way to start the week, but amidst all work, I really want to take the time to pass it onto you guys.

Anyways, try clicking on the pic to see clearly.



Its about the killing of baby seals thats emerged as a popular sport in Canada and Norway. I have a friend whom I like and admire. To quote her words "There isnt any other animal on this planet who kill for pleasure than humans." How true !!! I understand the nature's rule of survival. But I really dont like this.

To end on a pleasant note, last night, I had a dream. I was para-diving from high above from a helicopter with a freind of mine. It was as real as it could get on a dream. The feeling of the wind against our face and the fear for the first few seconds which turned out into a streak of the smiles and laughter and screams - happy ones.....Gosh, I so wanna do it ;-)

rants

Why do I end up fire fighting all the time.....Earlier, I used to be the one who should be blamed, for taking things for granted and letting it go the way they are, not steering any of the things, not be vocal in what I wanted, but life taught me bitter experiences. Then I learnt to make decisions more wisely or so I thought. I started taking all the time to analyse and be sure of what I wanted and if I can keep the commitment (Gosh, thats so difficult for a Gemini like me if you believe in sun signs) and that my desires come from deep within my heart. And I was happy I took time but at the same time was always very cautious to the extent of being over cautious. But I was clear. But then again,even though so clear in my thoughts and desires, things go wrong as they always do and I try to undo things, fire fight and try to make it smooth and best for all involved. But it jsut doesnt happen that way or atleast easily. When, you are careless and stupid, you end up doing the same as when you are cautious and clear in your mind. What de heck is the big deal then..Nothing actually matters !

Right now, am fire fighting to get things back on track at work (personal fire fights are on going *sob sob*) and things just doesnt look good in the near term and I hardly have any time to get thigns going.....
Now arent you just asking me what de heck I'm doing blogging when I have no time? *grin*...right, am back to work....

Man in the mirror

I always try my best to deserve what I get and believed in being righteous according to my own conscience. And I realized it may not be always the one that everyone accepts though. Sometime back, one of my fellow blogger -one of those friends without a face - had written to me about looking into your eyes and having a smile on your face. Probably very true - at the end of the day, all that matters is a hard days sleep without any worries and I'm happy where I'm today and what I have but I also believe in

"Miles to go before I sleep..." - the ever motivating lines of R.Frost for me that keeps me going at every phase of my life.

Man in the Mirror

When you get all you want and you struggle for self,
and the world makes you king for a day,
then go to the mirror and look at yourself
and see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your mother, your father or wife
whose judgment upon you must pass,
but the man, whose verdict counts most in your life
is the one staring back from the glass.

He's the fellow to please,
never mind all the rest.
For he's with you right to the end,
and you've passed your most difficult test
if the man in the glass is your friend.

You can fool the whole world,
down the highway of years,
and take pats on the back as you pass.
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
if you've cheated the man in the glass.

- Anonymous poet


via Hells Kitchen

The wait

When you accept people for what they are
yet you are judged

- just forgive and wait- mistakes happen...

When you give your best
and yet do not get acknowledged

- just laugh it off and wait

when there are some words you need to speak
yet have not been given a chance

- just wait for some unknown day

when the one whom you love with all your heart
want to throw it all and go

- just let them go and wait

when you decide it is someone you have known is THE someone in your life
and they decide otherwise,

- just standby, watch and wait.

But

never let the joy of the present moment wait
- time just waits for none!

Hola ppl...howdy doing?

Hola ppl,
am back. These pics that you see here were taken yesterday when uncle had come down. He also got with him a lot of new dresses for me. Infact we wanted to wear same blue colored tshirts and take snaps ;-). And uncle and mom have given me a new name at home . It is "AIBU".....ok, theres no spelling to it..I made it up myself. They pronounce it as "I-booo".

He likes to pamper me a lot with lots and lots of dresses these days. Everytime, he comes he gets something for me. I like being tossed high up in the air like what my uncle does all the time. You shd see him smile when I laugh like mad. For some strange reason, I like the feeling of tossed up like that.

However, I'm very unhappy because uncle left in a jiffy this morning. He had an emergency at work. Everyone pestered him, right from my mom to granparents to neighbourhood ppl and they were really pushing him too hard. He tried his best to explain last night but no one seems to understand him. I hate it when ppl do that to him. He is a very caring and loving person, but no one seems to bother. Last night, when he took me to the terrace as he always does when he wants to talk to me, he told me everything. I have never seen him so tired and give up anything and above all, his team has completely let him down in his needs of a little solitude and he has rushed today - believe it on a sunday afternoon - to undo all wrong done at work and he said, its gonna take him atleast the whole night and loads of coffee to finish up everything. I hope things go well for him. And I'm very sad at the way things are happening. Though its for the best of all, I dont want to miss him. He was never with me when I was born and I dont want to lose him now.

hmmm

I'm hooked onto these songs and I do not know why. Its kinda played in the loop as I drive - ;-( my friend has come on official trip and so he owns my motorbike now *sigh*. But hey, the adventure and health freak he has morphed into of late, we did a small rock climbing at Turahalli. It was fun..and its hardly 10kms from my place Yay !!! Just that we have turned black skinned from being brown skinned ;-) but wat de heck- who cares as long as you have the fun.

Unnakku enna mele ninrai - Simla special
Mudhal Kanave - Majnu
Complicated Heart
Be MY Lover - La bouche
Ek mein - Bluffmaster
Its the time to Disco - Kal ho Na ho
Maram Kothiye - Aah aah
Kaho naa kaho - Murder

Its strange because, I generally dont mix and match languages while listening, but I find myself listening to totally contrasting taste of music. God knows whats wrong with me.

Carnivals !

As much as I like the silence of the jungles and wildlife and animals, I like carnivals. The season of carnivals and the celebrations and the joy and happiness and the colors just blows my mind away.
One of my wishlist in my life would be to attend atleast 3 of the world's famous carnivals.
Click here to have view of some of the carnivals around the world

Bala Simpson !!!

I'm adopted into the Bart Simpson family ;-)



One show I liked to watch all the time at BelleVille along with CSI (all flavours) and The House(Parminder Nagra is also there in it ;-) but thats not what I used to watch it for), The 70s Show.

Thats why - you go away !!!

Was listening to Michael Learns to Rock and ABBA after a long time while driving in this mad mad hosur road traffic !!
*sigh* how long has it been since I listened to them ;-) Now that the CDs are back Voila, its gonna be fun .....

Just like that

Back when I was in Belleville, I had planned out for this one of a truly celebrating event - THE CARNIVAL OF VENICE.

It was one of a event I saw myself visiting this year with all the enthu but a lotta changes and I may not make it this time. But this is one of a event to visit.

How I wish our own Bangalore Habba is as good as these carnivals. This pic below was taken in the recently ended Bangalore Habba to celebrate Art. MG Road was wonderful that day with so much of artisitic work at display.


BTW, saw in the paper today about the CoxAndKings' EK KA CHAAR offer to travel Europe within a budget of 90000 INR/- Thats a cool offer for a family.

Benny Prasad has proved what it takes to live life with all the shortcomings. I'm inspired by him....93 countries in a couple of years - Gosh thats an awesome list....Read this article

Theres also a Jethro Tull and Sivamani show in IIMB in the first week of February. Now, IIMB is a almost walkable from my place and I hope I dont have to sit back for any meetings and miss the shows. I hope so !!!

WAT_R_YA_SAYING?


I was seriously playing with the balls and mom wanted me to give me a nice pose. Why dont they ever understand that all i like doing is playing all the time. They keep disturbing me either with that stupid food or to comb my hair or change my dress. I hate it, and this time, I didnt understand what mom was saying....I cant talk yet, so was just asking her with my expressions.

CHUCKLING!


I like to laugh all the time.....I'm just waiting for the teeth to grow so that I'll have a better smile and also can bite uncle's hand sooner HEHEHE!!! Everyone likes the way I chuckle covering my mouth all the time.....One of my friend Xena also has the same way of laughing....Thats y we both are good friends.

Howdy? How u doing?

Hey folks,

Bala - a dumb uncle of mine calls me kutti, but I actually like the name Mukil ;-)! Like my uncle, I also love my eyes a lot so much so that I keep staring at the mirror all the time looking at the cute baby out there on the opposite side. Bala decided to lend his blog to post some pics of myself for the next few posts. How nice of him, right? So here I'm gonna meet you with a portfolio of mine in the next few days.



BTW, I forgot to introduce myself....How silly of me? But i guess I carried it over from my uncle....Its in the genes you see !!!

Me is Mukil or rather authoritative sounding Meghavarma is my name !!! I'm a nephew of Bala - yeah, his Sis' kid....Mom takes care of me a lot, and I like to pee immediately after she changes my shorts. You should look at her then.....She goes wild, but its my granny who I'm so attached to. Rest in the next posts !!!

From the diary of true friends!

SHE wrote
sometimes i wish i understood people better
i keep trying, keep trying
but people seem to stump me every time
proving all my efforts were in vain

then should i stop?
should i accept that people were never meant to be understood?
should i go on, accepting whatever they say or do?
and not break my head with the question WHY?

or should i think about it
ponder where i went wrong
and make an effort, however small
to change myself, not for them, but to understand them better

but there doesn't seem to be an end
it seems like every time i make that effort
things change in a different direction
and i'm back where i started

why? why? why?
i hate that question
hate it even more now
as it snickers at me from above

maybe i should think just for myself
maybe i should be a little selfish
maybe then i'd feel a little less pain
a little less hurt

then again.. maybe i won't

HE wrote
People always try to understand others
yet, none becomes master.
Every once in a while they are put in a situation
that turns up like a burnt bread in a toaster.
Lessons are learnt, some right, some wrong.
Some just walk off the situation only to get into a new one.
Many become stone hearted. They keep themselves away further.
These are people who apply same pattern in every situation.
Few understand that each situation is unique.
Each one is an experience, they consider.
Is that Wine gets better with Age? they ask
Life just goes on - is their matured talk.
SHE wrote
each experience is different
each relationship so unique
yet when it says "THE END"
why do u feel the same?

life isn't a set of math equations
i dont think u have easy formulas
it's like learning to cook
u learn the basics, then do it ur own way

there are twists and turns on this road
and what seems like a road block today
will be long gone tomorrow

i know that life will go on
there's too much to see and do
than mull over transient relationships
and wonder what went wrong

but i just cant seem to bring myself up
to accept that i am gonna be hurt time and again
and there's nothing i can do to help it

HE wrote
The End lies with in our eyes
which believes in the lies.
Sets the mind into motion to expect
from others how you would like them to be.
At every intersection in the path of life
a decision to be made - to stay put or let go
or so, people understand.
They cease to believe that you can diverge and yet be together.
Many call it "The End".
Its when they are hurt.
Wise , however, take their time to
make their decision when they are rational.
Fianlly they rationalise, it is not about staying put
but appreciate the other in their own way.
Enjoy the ride as long as it is and at intersections,
they meet and share their experiences in the path they travelled.
SHE wrote
i guess when the hurt heals
i will do that
gracefully accept that the relationship has changed
and it's taking a different course

i will go on, and so will everyone else
to them, nothing has changed
to me, so much has changed

yet another way life tells me
that it's not a straight road
but a big circle
and all who go one way, will some day
come back to where they started
HE wrote
;-)

SHE wrote
;-)
HE wrote
;-))
SHE wrote
stop grinning u dumbo..

Cheers !!!

2005 was a bad time for Sam. He contracted a skin disease and started losing all the hair. There were moments when I have been pained wherein it was decided to give him away to Blue Cross not able to take care of him. But, as usual, it took me a lot of threats on my dad - I actually told him, I wld care a damn if he had another heart attack. And with my dietary conditions and cleaning frequency prescribed to my dad, hes got well starting this year. Infact, I'm so happy to see new patches of white hair growing in all the places he had lost. At the end of last year, he fell really sick and needed intensive care. And my friend took care when I wasnt there. We are just happy for him !!!

Ooooh ha Ouch !!!

This is the second time this is happening and I wonder why.
It happened the other day when we all met on saturday evening - a muscle pull - of all the places, on my stomach. Not the abdomen, but the place where the ribs end and the stomach actually is. When this happens, it becomes a little difficult to speak because any kind of movement seems to aggrevate it. And it takes close to arnd 10 mins to automatically vanish. It happened today right now after I kept the phone down sometime back. Well, wat do u wanna say Mr.Stomach?

Bye Bye DV !!!

Not bad, not bad at all !!! I thought I would be late today to work. And driving all the way from Chennai on a Monday morning, thats what I expected but here I'm @ work, at 11:30 even though I started almost at 8:00.

Went to drop and see DV off whos gone back to the desert! Somehow, while driving back, I had this strange feeling. Though I would get to see him by the later half of this year(hopefully), I guess this time, it was more personal which I always avoided so far with everyone.
Too much of contemplation driving back all alone, but good that my friend last night threw in a lot of CDs to keep me company. That little bugger he is, I realised many CDs were what he flicked off from me earlier !!!

I like the work that has been done on NH-4 but it just doesnt make sense with our people. Whats the point in having good roads and not able to drive fast because you have to be always on the look out for some TVS50 / cycle coming on the same lane in opp. direction or someone trying to run across the road to the opposite side !!! Crazy. It seems no one wants to develop any traffic sense !! *sigh* !!!

Marriage Invitation

I had a ex-collegue visiting us today to give away his marriage invitation. I met him when I was in Belleville. It had two cards, one of which had the follwoing imprinted on a very nice font.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove.
O no, it is an ever-fixèd mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.
- William Shakespeare.

Nice to know someone had taken W.S's Sonnet 116 for their invitation card.

That apart I like this particular verses from W.S too

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
And then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honour, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side,
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank; and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

Fun @ work

Its been celebration times at work here. Lots of cultural events happening.....and this afternoon @ work was Kite flying time .....Its just plain euphoria to see all those papers and sticks glued together flying high in the air with a single thread to hang onto. Not much different from our life, isnt it? ....Philosophy apart, reminds me of the time when we as school kids in the outskirts of chennai use to have so much of open spaces and one of the fav. past times was to fly kites high in the air. ITs so fun to hold onto that thin thread gleefully manovering the kite high in the air. And not to mention those competitions where you break the thread of the other guy's with a "DEAL" and the one with the best of the "Maanja" thread wins everyone.

Last evening we had lots of singing, dancing, fashion show et al..... Reminded me of times when I have done backstage work. Never do I generally get onto the stage. No, no.....dont have stage fear, far from that. I like being on stage any given opportunity. But just havent done it much, guess priorities were different then. With so much to complete @ work, I cld watch it only after 7:00 but it was a well conducted event. I missed the Violin performance and I hope to get onto stage (that I have always wanted to do) soon. Probably next year. A single solo guitar performance probably? or a dance? I do not know....yet.....but one thing that I have seen, I have been doing all the things I have wanted to do since the start of the year and hope I keep up the tempo. If I do keep it, I know I'll be learning swimming and take some pottery lessons this year. Terracotta has been one of my favourite medium.....The feel of the earth on your hand to shape into objects...I have never had a chance so far except for a small try at DakshinChitra, but would like to learn them sometime. But i guess there is plenty of time for it.

There are new goals that I have set for this year and most important one would be to increase my earning atleast by 50% than what I earned last year. And I havent still formulated a plan and what with tax times coming, there couldnt be a better time to plan things and ofcourse, 50% over last year would be a very high target to achieve, but with certain opportunities I seemed to be discussing with a few people, if I can make through them, I know I can please myself with more than 50% !!!*smiles* And i better do it, because I dont wanna sweat my ass all through my life. And I want to retire in another decade !!! And when I retire, one thing that I surely want to do is to write travelogues ;-) !!!! And if I can get involved in travel shows like that from Deepti Bhatnagar productions, or better Travel & Living, just perfect. Ms.Deepti, do you hear me? Or anyone who can give me such opportunities?

BTW, today is Rock Show, DJ nite. Programs start at 4:30 and the dance floor is all open from 7:00 !!!

On a dull, lazy thursday

A lazy morning
Skipped breakfast (forgot to buy milk last night;-( )
Heavy traffic
Usual meetings
Unusual mistakes (staring right back teasing you to wank them)
Tired mind
Unrelenting software
Forgotten lunch
Haphazard takeaways( CCD)
Loads of Caffeine
Deep contemplation (to fix the problem at hand) -

A Phone call
A chirpy voice
reciting rhymes
talking butterflies
sounding cheerful
bringing smiles !!!


This girl just made my day on a lazy thursday afternoon. Tx sophie for putting sweet little smrithi on the phone! Just waiting to catch up with her soon sometime !!!

Hurray !

Ok, its a kinda heaven when you can come back home and make "Avaraikkai Sambhar " and "Ennai Kathrikkai" for dinner, except that I'm abstinating from alcohol, even in the form of wine (atleast for quite a time to come), I get satiated with a glass of Grape juice to go along with it.....And ofcourse a movie like "Shall We Dance" ! Boy, it was a nice movie....made me want to get into serious dancing. Its been on my mind for a long time and I hope I can find someone near my place...
I have never been too fond of Richard Gere (yeah he does look good ofcourse) but in this movie he was just simply awesome....and not to mention the sober, callipygian(go figure the meaning of this word *naughty naughty* whoever came with that word LOL) JLo at her dancing best.
Talking about food, I just heard Krishna Cafe has come near my house *clap clap*.....so I'm not gonna cook much then ;-) but yeah I do not want to bloat my waist size too ;-) as I see happening with my friends eating out in Krishna Cafe !! The food is just perfect and now that its near my house, I better start working out.....
And I finally found a place to getsome nice continental food near my house. The restaurant is called "Work & Grill" and tried out Vegetable Steak and veg platter...Perfect...Except that I would have preferred some more waiters attending to the small bunch of people in not that crowded a restaurant. But hey, the food is awesome....They also have some nice chinese food and the Coriander soup was perfect to sooth my healing throat - infection from the viral fever. But yes, I havent taken medicines...and I wont..Let my body fight it out and its actually lot better these days !

a nice read !

I really loved this post from lovee for the way it was written.

I guess all that matters out of experiences in life is what you learn out of it. Every experience gives you two choices - choosing the better way (I dont differentiate between good/bad its all about perspectives) is upto each person.

Peace !

Courage

It takes a lot of courage to stand up for the mistakes which you were part of (even if not directly responsible for it or intended to be harmful) and assume responsibility and ask for an apology. It takes to keep aside all your ego to do it, even after you know that things probably wont remain the same and you wont be trusted and treated the same. But, yes, you feel like a MAN!
There is a time to rend and time to sew, sometimes the time to rend leaves deep scars - from The Zahir - Paulo Coelho.

That apart, was just hearing about this movie Anger Management and how explosive anger must be shown and not turned inwards.....Its better to show your anger and then feel sorry rather than turning it inwards and hurt yourself and finally end up hurting others more. Planning to watch it sometime this week.....

BTW, the list of movies I watched in the last week alone

Just Like Heaven (Nice simple movie not a must watch though)
Kanda Nal Muthal (liked it very much...plain, simple, neat screenplay and narration...*sigh* to myself for different reasons. One,reminded me of meeting with Laila in one of the resorts long time back. We had managed to get her to our table that night. That lady for sure is beautiful in person than on screen. Heard she is a balle dancer woooo)
KillBill (I watched it for 2nd time for Uma Thurman and because the DVD was a 4-in-1)
Love dont cost a thing (normal poor guy meets a rich girl and finally end up getting together - college graduate life and ambitions.....simple nice romantic movie to catch up with your girl.....)
Athu Oru Kana Kaalam (such a drag...cldnt finish it thru.....Balu Mahendra has to grow out of his obsession for Ooty and close ups and slow camera work does not make good acting....Not saying Dhanush did bad...but the movie is a let down...probably, thinking about it, I cld be little more fair to it, but I guess I wasnt looking for something serious)
Kalyug ( Mahesh Bhatt production exposes a s e x rachet in the name of those desi p o r n websites run by NRIs...actually a neatly made movie for the story line. The hero did have a nice smile...but not on a must watch unlike murder - Ah, Kaho na kaho and beege hont the re songs itself is enuff for me to watch the movie )
Company (Much acclaimed and I liked it. RGV is for sure different from the rest of the bollywood directors. For once I liked Vivek Oberoi on screen and MohanLal was his usual self. I have grown upto like Ajay Devgun actually)
Wild Things 2 (a crazy time pass movie and boy, it did have one of the steamiest sequence I have seen in recent times *drooling*)

Need to catch up on
Anger Management
Virudhh

On a jobless Friday afternoon

Went to Cafe Cofee Day with my collegue to get a life ...err.. I mean some coffee...It was Friday afternoon and both of us didnt feel like working...(Well, thats how I feel all the time though ;-) ).

Met an old time friend and collegue from my ex-office who had also joined here. Came to know he had put down his papers for better offer...(What the hell am I doing? I guess I have wrong sense of gratitude and consideration in this mean world ...grrrr...but hey, I'm looking for a more meaningful career path and I prefer to wait...Ah, time waits fornone though ..*now thats too much for a curved braces)....

Just yapping away commenting on the girls and sipping Cafe Mocha when I we grabbed the in house magazine "CAFEBEAT". I like reading through horoscope and some Tarot reading by some youngest Tarot reader caleld Madhushree.....For me personally, reading this is amusing....I dont take it seriously and there is never anything to take seriously in it ....grrrr...if only someone could have told me what I went thru well in advance, I wldnt have gone thru it....then whats the point in all these...but hey...its amusing....Since am a cusp between Gemini and Taurus....here I'm presenting you both....

Taurus:
Relationships
You'll hit it off exteremly well with Virgo's and Geminis (Oh yeah, geminis are the most craziest lot of sun signs as if one isnt enuff, they are two mind in same body...crazy)
Stay away from scorpios...(what, Linda says scorpios are beautiful...No way..Let them sting...I wld rather be stung by a beautiful scorpio).
If you are already in a relationship, learn to trust the choices your partner makes( Wth, I did trust and ended up being single ...grrrr)

Career and Money
Parttime work is good for you. (yeah, if someone pays me full time though)
You will easily impress people this month (Last month was a disaster though...:-( )
A word of caution: Dont trust everyone. (well, lesson learnt already)
Growth prospects are indicated by your choice of vocation
( Is guitar a right choice...Can I make a career out of it?? hehehe )
Theres plenty of money coming your way. so rejoice (What parttime job is that ? )

Life & dreams
Dig deep into that reservoir of talent that lies within you. (REservoir is big enuff but seems shallow though..LOL )
Rejoice in what you love doing. (Oh yeah, right..as if people hate what they love doing)
Put across your ideas in a way people understand( well, easily said than done madame)

Sex Life
You will have no reason to complain. ( very true ...I sleep alone grrrrrr)
You could be more emotional than you might have been so far( Oh yes, much needed you see....no way.....thats the stupidest stuff I can get myself into....in my life any one time more )

Lucky Numbers
3,6,13

Love Dates
7,8,12 ( I'm free on these dates this month...anyone pls ???)

Lucky Color
Green (hey, thats Earth color... I like it)

GEMINI

Relationships
Be cautious in your relationships. If emotional involvement is what you are looking for, again, caution is advised..
( what if I dont look for a relationship at all ...hehehe)
If you are already in love, rest assured, you have made the right choice. ( well, I guess the other person also should think so, dont you think...;-0 )
Dont get tempted by a new partner ( oh yeah, lemme have one partner in the first place....grrr)

Career and Money
If you dont already have ajob, dont despair( Thank god. I have one)
For those who hold one, promotion and bonuses will come your way ( yeah, badly needed)
Be careful with your finances. Money isnt really flowing in, but you will ahve enuff to spend(Nice to know that )

Life and Dreams
Travel is an excellent idea.Take long vacations. Nature cures your worries. Trekking, rock climbing, water bodies are good for you.Get more physical this year ( true...but I guess my managers wont really see my point of view )

Sex Life
Your sex life rocks. ( thats the blatant lie I have ever heard in my life )All you need is to go with the flow (grrr..Dont show your face to me )

Lucky Numbers
3,12,8 ( 3 seems to be common for Taurus and Gemini..lemme take that)

Love Dates
14,12,16 (Actually, any date is fine with me if I can get a date *wink*)

Lucky Colors
Red and Green ( Not bad)

P.S
If I'm crazy enuff to put it on my blog, and if you have read it till here....trust me you are crazier.....and for sure you have more free time than me ;-) Go get back to work....!!!! hehehe

A dinner date!

She was dressed in a carefully pressed business formal - a black trouser and pure white shirt that accentuated her figure to more than perfect. As the head of her team, she was addressing her team of the new strategies to employ. It was when she was pointing to some of the statistics that her mobile buzzed. She excused herself, and it was him. She listened to short, crisp message from his manly voice. "The dinner tonight is at our beach house." He had kept the phone down. It was his way. – Spontaneous and random, unpredictable. A sudden surge of adrenalin rushed through her. What has he planned? He was known for his surprises and the very thought of the evening with her man in the beach house made her feel sexy. It had been long time since they had caught up with special moments of romance. The vagaries of the responsible jobs had not given them much time for togetherness. He was an Engineering Head of a top notch company. Yet, he somehow seemed to manage to find more time than her and she had always wondered how?.
"The evening can wait, let me complete things fast so that I can curl up with him" She thought.
She parked her car outside their house. His car was already there. She smiled to herself. The pathway was dimly lit. That’s how they liked it always. She walked through the pathway to the main door. She was about to open the door when he opened it for her. He was dressed in his white cotton pants and half sleeved white shirt. The top buttons of his shirt were open - his typical style. She flung herself into his arms and they hugged for what seemed eternity. He pulled her apart and perked a soft kiss on her lips and asked her "How was the day?”
She said, "Went very well. The quarterly review meeting took most of my time in the morning and then...." He put his index fingers on her lips and silenced her.
"Just say Good/Bad. No office talks here. Remember our promise." She remembered
He had got her promise after they fought one night. It was work pressure that had taken a toll on them both that day. They had survived through those difficult times.
She nodded and a smile emerged as she remembered how silly a fight it was and how it finally got over as they both did not want to waste the night.
"Have a warm bath and change yourself. I'll get the dinner ready by then." he said.
"Let’s make the dinner together."
"Do we really have to go hungry?" he was naughty
She gave a false stare and went in.
She opened their glamorous bath and took a deep breath. The tub was filled with warm water and her favorite aroma salt. The scented candles they had bought from their trip to South East earlier was glowing. She put on the music and sank into the tub. After a relaxing bath, she came out. She wondered what to wear contemplating on his choices. She changed into a flowing sarong skirt and a crimson spaghetti top.
She came out to the living room. Soft country music was playing behind. He was nowhere to be found. She walked towards the player. Suddenly, he came behind her and blew behind her ears. She turned around and threw her arms round his neck, his hand held her waist and they kissed each other. He was trying to hide something behind him and that’s when she noticed a huge gift there. He gave it to her with a smile. He had signed "To my woman" - "your man"
She carefully parted the wrapper and found her child self staring back at her. It was the portrait of her when she was 3 years old.
"Oh my gosh. It’s beautiful. I never saw you working on this at home"
"I did it in the office" he smiled.
"Look at the Engg Head. Since when did they start paying for your sketches? Oh, this is the pressure that has kept you away from me for a couple of dinners, huh?" in her typical false authoritative tone.
He smiled back. She placed it carefully on the table and ran and hugged him tight and showered kisses. They sat down on the sofa and talked for a while. She wanted to catch up with some Tom & Jerry. They watched it together for the nth time.
"Time for some sumptuous dinner.” He announced.
"What are we making today?"
"Hmm.....fettuccini on Alfredo, garlic bread, a garden side salad, and red wine. Is that enough for my girl or does she wants more?"
They worked on the vegetables. She was amazed at his efficiency and his speed. He had always wanted to be a chef, he used to say. The best Chef in the town is mine, she thought.
She arranged the cut vegetables on the table and cleaned the plates as he lit the stove and placed the pan to make the pasta. She felt mischievous.
“I don’t feel like having pasta today” She said.
“Hmmm….so what does her highness want today?”
“Anything else will do. “
“Give it up and do the table my dear. Doesn’t work.” He said with a glint in his eyes.
She flexed all her facial muscles to chide him and started arranging the table. She made the salad and the bread and placed the plates on the small dining table. She read the label of the new wine bottle for the evening. “Ah, it would be nothing less than perfect wine.” She thought as she smiled at his taste of his wine.
She went near him and watched his carelessly neat style of cooking and the way he tossed the pasta. He finished cooking and gently placed them on the plates she held. She always liked the way he arranged the food on the plate. He was meticulously neat.
“It’s as much about the presentation as the taste itself” he said reading her thoughts.
“Ah, you and your presentation. 100th time you are telling me this.” She said poking his ego.
“Well, then why do you stick around hearing to the same crap again and again” he looked at her, his eyes gleaming.
“Tch tch .No one makes better food” she said.
“Is that it?” he asked throwing up his hands in false despair.
“No one serves me better too” she laughed and went behind and hugged him. She kissed his neck and said “No one can love me better than you do.”
He took her hands and pulled her to the front and kissed her on the cheek and said, “Now time for food. And please do the honors.”
She popped open the wine bottle and filled their glasses.
“Why do you always make me open the wine bottle” Once she had asked when they dated and he had responded with mushy mushy answer. “Wine is the best companion to dine and the touch of your hand makes it divine.”
“To love and good health” they raised a toast to each other.
They finished their dinner with the slow music in the background and amidst a lot of talking and feeding each other occasionally. They put the dishes in the dishwasher and came out to the patio. She lit the patio with the candles. She always loved them and the moon light on that clear summer sky spread its radiance. “Perfect. It can’t be better than this”, she thought.
He brought his guitar and sat next to her.
“I make the choices” she smiled.
“After I play one for you” and he started playing Richard Marx - Now and Forever for her.
He played his guitar while she watched him mesmerized, his fingers bringing the music of their soul together. She soon started singing while he played the guitar for her. The sweetness of her voice and the music from the strings flowed through the sea breeze with the mild sound of the distant waves lashing at the shore providing the background. They continued enjoying the music. They had finished all their favorite songs. He kept the guitar down and they went for a walk on the sand.
They were holding each other as they walked and talked and laughed on the lonely beach– like two crazy kids who believed there is no tomorrow. Soon, they started running towards the water and played.
To him, she looked like an angel. Her ruffled flowing soft hair fell across her face in the breeze making her look like a mermaid out of the water in that lone beach. The wetness aroused his desire even more. He stopped, turned her around and kissed her hard. She responded with the same intensity.
“Take me home right now” she shouted. He lifted her in his arms and ran home. She was kissing him crazily all the way. It was a long night waiting.

P.S
This post - a recurring dream that I have been envisioning and working towards (Dude, now I understand whats with the guitar) is dedicated to that "SHE" who by now must be walking this planet somewhere! *smiles*

Just Like Heaven

It was a cool day last evening. Been a long time since I had felt so happy being myself. Started off from the office at 4:00 and came home to slurp the left overs and couple of glasses of Orange-Apple Tango from Tropicana. Then slept for 30 mins before waking up and deciding to tidy up the house a little bit with "The Beatles" playing. Had a warm bath and off I went to my first guitar class. Its almost 884217600 secs since I cld have learnt music. Tx to my friend, who shook me up completely to make me realize what I wanted in my life. And Boy, wasnt it so thrilling. The moment, you place the guitar on your lap and encapsulate the 6 strings in between your thumbs and index finger, thats heaven. It was my first class and a novice that I'm in learning music (I did try to learn Flute but after 4 days I still hadnt learnt to make any noise even out of it and I gave up), I was awed when the tutor took my guitar and tuned it and played a country music for me. Then I learnt about the differences between steel string and classical (I had already done my homework on it early in the day ;-)) and the positions and details like Frets and chords. Then, the real class started with me getting to stroke the strings the musical way *grin* and then a few exercises. I guess I did fairly well. *clap clap*. Did some simple finger exercises getting a feel of the instrument. It was only for the right hand and after close to 20 mins of practice, I got a beginners exercise for the left hand. That leaves me with something to practice for the next 6 days and to get a Musical manuscript so that I can learn to read and write music. And I came home after picking up a couple of movies and was stopped by my neighbour,(translated to English from Hindi)

"Son, dont you reside alone?"
"Yes Aunty."
"Dont you feel bored?"
"hmm...no"
"Do you cook yourself or eat out?"
"I cook myself"
"Very good. You know to play guitar?"
"No, I've just started to learn".
"Very nice. Seems like you are setting up the house with TV and Cot"
"Yeah Aunty. Sometimes it gets boring."
"Are you planning to get married?"
I was stunned.
"No, why?" *thinking to myself where this all is leading to*
"You have set up the house, you have a bike, car, good job. I thought things are working out towards marriage".
I laughed out loud.
"aunty, Shouldnt a Bachelor have all this or what?"
"No no , beta, not like that. But what is preventing you from doing it?"
"Nothing. I didnt think it is necessary now. I'm happy this way."
"These days, young people are always like this. You will understand later."
I smiled and went in.

It had been nice feel to get engrossed in the strings and then come home. Looked around to see what I could make for dinner. And voila, the easiest dinner was ready in minutes.

Fried Beans and vegetables.
2 Fried Eggs.
A glass of Tropicana Guava Nectar
A glass of cool cool buttermilk.

Set up my food in front of the TV and watched "Just like Heaven".
Gosh , it was perfect - Just Like Heaven !!!

P.S
An add on yummy breakfast tip.

Get the Mango Nut crunch Flakes. In a bowl of Mango Nut Crunch, put in a couple or more of Almonds and a spoon or two of honey and a glass of milk. Man, thats an awesome quick breakfast which has become my regular these days, of course followed by a glass of juice and on reaching office, I pick a cup of Cappucino from CCD.

Just Like Heaven !!!

Acting? Me?

Personally, I feel a little awkward to do it, but I have been asked to appear for a video shoot of the training in the 3rd week of January - yeah, the same training that by now, I can give half way thru my sleep. ;-)

If you ask me to relive my life, I wld probably select being a theatre artist/Chef rather than S/w engg. I can atleast realise my dreams of a Chef by cooking for my friends, but I guess I got to satisfy myself with such videos unless DV decides to make a movie and cast me as a HERO, ok, fine DV, atleast a small role ;-). Hey, you promised.

P.S:
Just got this quote on my mail yesterday.
Our lives improve only when we take chances - and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
- Walter Anderson

Cultural differences

Heard this morning....cldnt resist laughing my brains out !!

A young lady( known to mix lot of Hindi with her English and speak Hinglish goes to the manager and as is her wont, blurts out,) "sir, Can I have a private "baath" with you"?

Manager :@#$!#$@#$???

What wld u do if u were the manager ???

P.S:
Those who do not know Hindi Baath = talk !!!

First post of the year !

hmmmmmmm!


First day of the year is over !!! tch tch...I hate it when holidays fall on a weekend ....grrr...(Point to myself, dont ya worry dude...it doesnt take you anywhere).

Anyways....
This is almost the first time in the last seven years I think(or even more than that dude), I was at home when the clock struck 12:00.

Nice to be with the family, the new kid on the block (yeah, mukil, will post the pics soon), and spend it with sis and a couple of friends.

Dec 31 ended on a sweet note, with Bday celebrations and a nice talk to explain myself to my friend and finally laying my hands on Yamaha C 70 - classic.

Gosh, the feeling of holding that piece of an instrument and feeling the strings - thats heaven ! (Making a mental promise to play for Ravi next year).
Holed my pocket upto 8000 Rs/- and the first New Year message came from @ 2:00 AM from a person I least expected. ;-)

Drove down early in the morning of 1st and on the way, met Sophie and Prakash wishing them a happy new year and showing off my latest priced possession. Then comes the best part of the New Year when I furnished my apartment with

Cupboards
A double Cot(whats on your mind, dude?)
Mattress
Samsung TV (grrr..not the plasma though)
Samsung DVD player

I had a budget of 30000/- and I got all of the above. I was tempted to just get a Home theatre, but better sense prevailed on the first day of the year and I started furnishing the house. Next remains the curtains and deewan to watch the movies -
ho ho ho !! (Its movie time soon dude at home - better than PVR visit). Anyone wanna catch up on a movie and some cocktails / mocktails over the weekend in Blore, welcome home !!!

MY first class of guitar starts tomorrow and I have the most toughest of the things to do on earth - grow my nails for playing it and that too on my right hand *sob sob*. The longest I have stayed without biting nails is probably 8 hours when I sleep ???